So sad so sad ... (i'm really going mad a) Anyway why i am sad is today's driving lesson was not good at all, i realised i gain a lot of weight from staying home and yes 933 is giving out JJ hampers but i have no fate with it.( actually i don't have fate with anything 933 gives out everytime i try, even when it is for my friend.) Everytime i either miss the number or when the questions is with regard to the mv, my computor hangs on the mv so i can't answer any questions. Suppose this is sign from heaven to stop my siaoness liao. The weight problem Ahahahaha... i don't know when it started but then better start losing weight. Today was the first time the instructor was fiercer... he like giving up but he very nice is that he will point my mistakes at the end of lesson and continue nagging on what should be done and what not. There is one more day for the hamper anyway but i think i will just give up. Afterall my policy is <>

Today is a tuesday. nothing much happened for a past week that i can remember very well. Maybe thanks to my short term memory. Sunday my driving lesson was terrible!! The instructor let me on the main road instead the circuit and the car nearly died in my hands. It jerks, almost hit and stalled for a record number of tims. Hahah think to get my license will be tough. How bored. My house under renovation. Everyday there is thumping banging hammering. Of course i escape the noise by going out. So sad my 24 hr standby companion has gone to hongkong this week. Kind of funny... 24 hr standby... but she is same as me, jobless so it is kind of like the jobless wandering the streets. Now listening to Ah Sang's Ye Zi. The lyrics is really sad. My english song listening folk if u listen to this u will sad sad sad. Afterall that is the point of the song. Chinese listening ones will think it is very romantic and still sad lah. One of my friends is facing a breakup. I never had a relationship before so actually i am not sure how to help her. All i can do is speak what i think. Relationships now are really different from the past. They can be simple yet complex, distant yet entwined. I suppose maybe globalisation has effect?? Hee thinking of the QET. My term starts 26 july. I know NUS starts 2 August.

Now listening to Elva's Xing Fu Di Tu... The lyrics goes mei ge ren xin li dou you a tu xing fu de di tu.... just wondering where it leads...

Heehee side track already. Yesterday i went swimming. Boy was it exhausting. Ok kind of sure to be exhausted because i have not swam since my last blog entry that i swam and that was January i think. So now i have decided since NTU has a swimming pool.. dun waste it. I shall take all chance to swim at least once a week. Yesterday also burnt a big hole in my pocket. I bought a hairband for my sis, a cross necklance and 2 shirts for myself. Heartache. Heartache. Qt said really correct when u start earnin money, u will not be able to spend it. The cross necklance is just a sudden impulse. I have been reading my bro's BB bible for the last weeks. Yes the thick type not the children's simplifed version. Kind of think about it. When people can put full trust into something, they lead more ease lives. In the bible, Jesus tells the people to put trust in the Lord and he will guide them. No wonder all my Christian friends have a spark in the eyes. It is their believe that keeps them strong. It is amazing actually if people put their faith in they are in a way rewarded. Then maybe we will have less sucides. I remember my aunt was a devoted christian and she held a very strong faith till the day she passed away. Although stricken with nose cancer, she held on very firmly. I wondered back then what was her source of strength. Maybe now it is obvious.

You know they always say there are good days and bad days... hmm... My life is not one of theirs. Some people have all the luck of the world. I am definitely not one of them. It seems that Fate has programed my life in a very fair method. If i have some luck, I am bound to meet disaster soon. Like today i managed to ask my friend to tape down JJ on Wan Quan Yu Le and found a website all about his new album. 2nd Heaven( ok honestly i have not bought it, kind of scared later there will be stuff with itlike the cyndi pone, jolin one,etc.) Now that's the end of my luck. I was refilling ink into the printer cartidge but all of the sudden, the thing fell and squirted all over me. Now my shirt, my favourite blue shorts all black. Worse is me. My hands are like dalmations' spots and i have two black lines on my foot... Hahah actually quite funny but i will have to wear socks stretched quite high for a week or at least the ink comes off... 2nd heaven.. another heaven. How i wish there is. Maybe my fate there will be better.. Like the rap lyrics
You think it is perfect
everything is so fine
Wait till you look it through your
Spiritual eyes
You think it’s nice
But please open your eyes
This place is but a
Beautiful STY
You want it I want it
Everything ‘s a want
We lose it then we say it’s
For FUN
You think it’s funny
What I’m saying is corny
It’s a warning
Heed it or IGNORE it
Actually no need for those spirtual eyes, i think looking at myself now in the mirror is enough...
One more thingy, they released his Jiang Nan MV. I think the director is too artistic. He ended up in a drain... btw i crawled into a drain (HOI not to copy him k i went in on sat n his MV released only after) to help move stuff across it. It was only meant for my family to see but ended up my uncle aunt two cousins saw me and could not stop laughing... i suppose my idea is too innovative heehee...

Hello everyone! Now i have decided to try start everyday as a new day. Haha i am officially jobless and will remain in this state till school reopens haha. Today's a new day all right. My friends are going to Hongkong on 21 june. So envious of them but i have not enough money after going to KL and i dun feel like going to HongKong. Now i only thinking of Korea or Taiwan. Karin keeps teasing me why i wanna go Taiwan. Hey not because of wat k! I not a crazy fan. I have heard of fans going all the way to the taiwan university to find toro but seriously.... it's kind of silly. Even these singers also won't want ppl following them all the time. Everything i think is fated. I really believe in fate. Through fate i meet a lot of great friends. I am very blessed in a way. Although i have problems with my sister, i have my dad mum brother and a bunch of very chumy friends around me. I dunno whether its me whose dense. But i never felt any of my friends are totally selfish or bad. Maybe time to time they do selfish stuff but never always. Up to now i have nt learn guitar. Really bit worried i be terrible. Now in my brain are guitar learning modern dance learning and singing lessons. Hahah a bit too much but they are just thoughts since i'm the type that thinks no action. JJ is releasing his new album this sat in singapore. Thinkin thinkin whether to buy or wait...mayb later got better package...