Man! I got a major shock today... i actually passed my driving test with 14 pts and i was honked at the junction somemore. BUT i passed!!!!!! I can't even remember what i did during the test. Everything was auto... I was like a stone when i saw the tester tick passed... Think my eyes opened too big or wha... later he thought i completely blurred... he told me go where after the btest( but honestly i forgot all the procedures after that). However, tian suan bu ru ren suan... the traffic police computor system down and i can't even get my temporary license. So my luck ran out then. For those who are hesiting, no need to. It may seem hard but its neccessary if you want your life. They focus alot of safety. I remember reading an article about JJ taking the test in Taiwan. Hahaha... It's not as scary as they reported. I was honked and not moving off super fast but as long as you are stable, it will be ok. They look for maturiy in handling the car. The tester's first words after the test was " you have the maturity" Wa i was shocked by that. My instructors always say i lacked that. I now swear i must uohold the trust and believe the instructors and tester placed in me for me to pass( afterall they both have the power to stop me from taking and passing). I would reallhy like to thank my 3 most current instructors for helping me the most.

Loneliness is a type of disease. It feeds on your soul when you are alone. The cure is existent but may not be successful. Friends are there to listen but can not be always there when you need a shoulder or encouragement. They may be a handphone away but can never be always there by your side. However they are still the pillars of the soul. The ones loneliness can't eat away. Just now i read qt's blog. I really understand how it feels because time to time i have to go out by myself. My friends find it hard to believe but i feel i must. It's the pre-loneliness preparation. Having times by your self will let you understand the importance of friends. I used to be a loner in primary school. In kindergarten, i was the one teacher would tell to shut up. But in primary school i did so. Till Sec1 cca i knew yek and von. When in Sec2 i got to know khim jia yun better. In Sec2 was also my turning point when i meet hua rong ky. In Sec3-4 all the girls were like a big family. We were all on the same frequency. Almost. In JC, i could not click with my class except for qt xf ros n of course selena. Outside the class i knew lili huili li juan karin sheeren szeyee valerie weiyuan etc. I really want to cherish my friendships to the fullest but i'm not sure how. In NTU i have even less friends. So far only 2 close ones. I can feel the loneliness bug biting me again. It is saddening, but i know it can be helped so i will try to break through my hestitation and shyness to know more people.

Just wanna write bout the zpop concert i went to..IT'S SO COOL!!!!!!!!! Saw FIR lin junjie stella yida energy nan quan mama richie ren sun ho z chen pu shu da di a bao& brandy angela etc... esp president Nathan was there. Suddenly the concert felt like NDP. So cool!!! I practically partyed the whole time! i shook the light stick too hard i think. the light went out. I use the lightsticks to try to form JJ but dun think it was succuessful but nvm. At least i tried to attract his attention so his " first wife" & "third wife" will be pleased. Hahaha For one min i thought i saw zhang si er in the crowd right beside me but didnt get a second look because after stella he disappeared. Think my luck's not that good till i can meet him live. But it would have been neat. I really like his lyrics esp dou jiang you diao. Read a mag article about him. Seems like his jj army buddy. At least i guess so. 19 yr old know each other. All sporean guys suffer at 19 from one common thing....NS. Hahaha...Hopefully there will be another chance of going to the zpop concert... nv regretted spending 10 bucks...n hopefully another chance to meet up with this talents...but that's a super low chance...