Yeah My first in class assignment done! Peace love & Joy!!! haha... Not christmas but better than nothing. Now is project-ty time. SIanzzzzzzzzzzz.........

Juz finished watching Superstar Qian Zou on ChanU, now listening to the purposely grumbling sister( she'as acting as though i snatched the com from her, but honestly you will never hear so much politeness from me to her, or in fact anyone i also have not been before so polite. Anyway now she's trying to peek at what i'm typing. Oh what the heck! I'm not her prisoner, and most important i know this computor more than she does.)

Wa Derrick is just so kawaii!! K i'm not crazy in love with him but if my bro was half cute, that would be good. He went " Yifeng-Jie, Yifeng-Jie, Cuo le," in a kind of slightly die (aka cute cute)sound. Then he passed the shirt to Junyang.

Won't you agree that its wonderful to chase your dreams? Like them each fighting to be a shining star on the stage. Although each of them are clear that the stage can never withhold so many but at least they tried. Cheers on!

Sometimes i wonder how many of us are like me, lost in the gleaming city lights, blurring what we want and what they want? Are we part of society or society is part of us? Which day we will break out from society and reach for what we want? Which day will we be undaunted by the stuff we hear? Maybe the day will be tommorrow, maybe the day will never come. In the words of my sister, " The world is horrid, all is lost, we might as well die."

Well i didn't say it will be helpful. Okay, she's switching off the light although i'm in front of the com in front of her. Sometimes I really wished if she didn't like me nor my brother, why didn't she just inform my ma, at least maybe we two will be born elsewhere. No one else's sister needs her younger slibings to take care of her when she's physically and mentally able. Think i'll go mad soon.

Okay if you aren't into sad things and sad education systems skip this.

This morning i was thinking when was the last time i spoke up for myself. In the end, nope, can't think of a time. Instead i recalled a accident that happen when i was Pri 3. Somehow that was a time i felt very disappointed. When i was in primary school, i took the bus to school everyday. On the bus was my classmate, A. She was kind of arrogant so we didn't exactly clicked. Any way her closest friend was K. They were always together. Now this was silly but one day they decided to be the last people to enter the school compound, so they would wait at the bus exit till everyone on the bus got off. I sat the deepest darkest end of the bus so i'm always last.

One day, K was knocked down when the bus reversed. Don't ask me why. I was already halfway up the steps to the canteen when i heard a loud thud. I looked around and saw all the bus drivers gathering around. I didn't even see K, only saw A. I figured she couldn't be standing there all the time so I waved at her. She ran towards me, not crying or anything, just panicking. She ask me what to do. Well, i am the same age. How would I know? So i answered the best answer a 9 year-old could think of. Tell someone like the teacher that shared the same bus as us. The n we both reached the canteen and suddenly A started telling everyone in the class there. Suddenly the teacher that shared the bus with us appeared. She instructed A to keep quiet and follow her. Well, i was left there to answer everyone else's queries. Erm, I don't even know K. How was I to answer?

The next day during PE lesson, my form teacher called A out. She asked who told you to tell the class. And A pointed to me, so i in the end got a huge scolding from the teacher. I didn't speak up, i didn't know why. Maybe i thought A would be in more pain from losing her friend, maybe i thought A had misinterpreted what i said, so i might as well be the scapegoat. Till now I didn't understand why I was scolded for.

I hope in future teachers would be better. AT least think before they act. Well being the scapegoat was no fun. A ignored me like i was air. The teacher didn't like me much, she wrote on my cap "to learn to grow up". Well, so? I have grown and probably gone through more than other peers. So? I saw A a few years back. She's still arrogant like in primary school.

In memory of K.

Troubled about something. This few days feeling like so troubled but i can't figure out why? Aren't I too young for menopause? Anyway my dog vomitted today morning. Dunno what he eat behind our backs. Must be snapping at flies again. When he knows everytime he snaps at one, he ends up swallowing them and later tummy upset. No wonder they say dogs have 7s memories. Think NDP G.O.H. kekanan rulus. Exactly 7s.

Received my first bday(excluding ang baos) A bag! Just what i should had changed 2 years! Think my friends got sick of my hanging and messy bag. Well that bag is going to my brother. I bugged my dad on purpose ( just to act cute lah) for the hongbao and got $50 bucks! Wahah! Then i bugged my brother to sing his teachers' day performance song for me but he stuffed $5 and walked off. Bribery! Haa. But never mind, i always give back in the end. Afterall i buy whatever he needs or wants without taking the money back.

Haha.. Happy Birthday Me! whAT'S BeIng 20? It's just another year!

Think I found something that just delights me. No, didn't get any presents, a hongbao from Auntie Mama and Mummy( still trying to convince my dad to give one..Hee) and a necklance from Don. But I got sms( up till now) fro Kar, Jo, Yekky,JW, Ah-Jia,Hua-jie, & QT. Wahah. Although its less than how many i got two years back and no party like one year back but never mind. The benefit of being older, you value things differently. Maybe i have not been people-ly enough so people don't remeber but what the heck? I'm still very happy with the smses!!

THANK YOU PPL!!!

So Happy So Happy... Went to NDP yesterday... As in the ACTUAL PADANG NDP... Party On!!!
Really beautiful, almost everyone was in red. From the blue section was red on left, red on right and red in front. Beautiful. That is Us. Us, Singaporeans!! That is our culture, our identity, our diversity, our unitedness!!

It's just touching. Just imagine when other countries are fighting over their religion differences, their culture differences, we have all past that stage. We learn we have walked past we have grown.

I could swore that my seat shook alot when the air force flow past. The auntie was shouting and holding on to her seat. My dad insisted on not bringing his specs so he watched the parade in blur. He did participate much though. Was too busy trying to figure out what's happening on the field.
Happy Birthday Singapore!!
Thank you to the sponsors, the planning commitees, the stage commitees, the security commitees, the motivators, the performers, everyone who had a hand or leg in the parade. Without you guys, Singapore's 40th birthday won't rock so much. I had a great time joining in the never-ending wave (even after the hosts stop running, there were still ripples in every section.), the tapping to the music, whistling, popping, though the dancing was very constrained.

Actually I wanted to type my experience but can't. It's too magical and speechless. It's like watching your idol step down from the concert stage and sit beside you. You just smile and party, nothing else goes through your mind. It was like barely an hour through a tutorial class but the whole parade was over and the post parade party was shaking down.


My brand tag.... Proud of it!
(even if its a little worn out but I'm almost 20 and S'pore's a full 40.)

Now blowing my nose dry. Thanks JY. Now we are equally sick. Tuesday how?

yeap school started. If you want the stats on my battle with the STARS system, its O to infinity.
STARS won so i brought out the best weapon, a email to the professors. Yea who said humans will lose to technology? I changed my class. Although my first Monday with tutorials was bad, now it should get better. At least i'll be half more alive. Want to write a thank you to my profs, but the system says i had already sent when all i did was to write a draft. Really conflicting. Should I send just in case? What if the system really sent another mail? Will they be upset over two mails? It's been days since they told me they helped me change class. Sounds like I'm real ungrateful. But then.... aiya... computor won again.

Just reached for another tissue. think i spread the flu bug to my brother. Hopefully his asthma does not act up. Someone told me that if your asthma does not act up for 8 years, you are cured. Or else you will have a hell of a life. Now counting, my bro's in his 3rd year. 5 more, hee, does not sound easy. Luckily ah ma kept the ice cream out of your sight yeaterday.

The weather is terrible. So hot here, so hot in HK, so hot! And then there's typhoons in Taiwan. Lucky my friend HF got back in time to miss Haitang, but now its Masa ( Haha... name same as the Mayday band member). Hopefully everyone's safe n sound. Tommorrow's the 8th.Pre- national day., national day eve, Joi chua's new album, school day. Nvm, at least there's Tuesday to compensate. N there's the exact 1 week after Tuesday. Oh no, i forgot to buy my Sis's B-day present!!! That leaves only 4 days!!!