Quoting one of my favourite songs...

Shania Twain's Still The One

(When I first saw you, I saw love.
And the first time you touched me, I felt love.
And after all this time, you're still the one I love.)

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

BRIDGE:
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

CHORUS:
(You're still the one)You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

(BRIDGE)
(CHORUS)
(CHORUS)

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

now : stressed? nope. Worried? not really. Wondering about something? sure

I have a older sis n a younger bro. But i would really like a elder bro like to stand up for me or juz joke with me. To me, big brothers are like support pillars. From my frens with elder brothers, they are content but they always would say they would rather have a sister instead, to chat, xin su to each other. But i and my sis don't do that. She is never receptive to others, let alone listen to others. Instead, i act like an elder sister to her. So what i would like is a brother. Anyway it would explain the way i act much better.

I have always been mistaked as a boy when i was young. Everytime i enter the lift with my grandma, everyone would say," Wa your grandSON? So cute!" Everytime my grandma gets red-faced when she has to explain. My grandpa said before shang di meant me as a boy instead, from the way i behave, i was wilder than my male cousins. Or else i would have to be hand over to the zoo. Even my frens asked me if i was heading to being a les before. AND I HEREBY CLEARLY STATE NO! Like guys with only sisters tend to be more femine in behaviour. So with a elder bro, i would be so-called influenced. Then that's why i behave like a boy at times. Haha!

Okay...(deep breaths).. okay i got a great shock from my tagboard.. juz in case its gone by the time you read this...here's what nearly made me drop off my hostel chair..

Zhang Si'er: Hope you enjoy our latest song - "Bian Hao 89757"! Cheers!
Zhang Si'er: Hi, I'm Si'er. I happen to come across your blog by chance. By the way, the person you thought you saw was me, is not me. I was not at the Padang when Junjie performed there last year.

Can you believe it? I think i just got sent back to my 15s.. but of course being the skeptical person i am. It's hard not to be suspicious. After all i have a group of frens that will definitely try all means to cheer me up when i am down..( and tht is one of the reasons i try not to show when i am down). However in another view, if they wanted, they could fake a JJ or a Fish Leong. Heehee.. so i starting to believe. Wow, it really made my day. Kind of thought that my blog had been thrown into the frozen cells of the internet again. Wonder what made my blog come out...

Since the saying goes, "something won't knock at your door twice", i doubt there will be a second shock but like norm, i will write as if he will view this again. Dou Jiang You Tiao is very successful! I got a fren that heard this song and loved it immediately. She back-tracked JJ's first album and fell in love with Dong Jie. Neat, touching and cute lyrics. For me, my favs are nu er jia, hui you na men yi tian, dong jie, tian shi xin, xiang xing wu xian lyrics! You wrote bian hao 89757 too? Wow! Thanks for penning them! They're great!!

Today morning was totally devoid of feelings. I was totally confused on how to feel the whole morning. Totally lost. My dad was wheeled into the operating room at 9 plus. Remember i prayed that my dad would get well? He had to undergo a bypass today. One of his main arteries was clogged. Although bypass had been performed a gazillion times across the world, there is still risk. My dad's in his fifties but my bro's in his tenths. No one else is working a permanent job except for him and my ma. Finally at 1.40pm he was wheeled out and placed into the ICU. Now its his game. Being my dad, i fully believe that he will pull through now. The only thing i was scared was the operation. You have no control, all the control is in the hands of the doctors.
On my way to school, i was thinking of what i used to do with my dad. I was the only one that sat on his shoulders down the stairs. I was the only one who tagged along on his car trips around the neighbourhood(when petrol was still affordable). And i was the only one who started to call him old man without him getting angry. Heehee.. never knew i was so privileged to do all this.
I wanna go visit him but school's still in plus the exams are reaching so i'm forbidden from going within hospital perimeter. But i'm confident of finding a way round my prohibition.

P.S. > actually it was kind of hard for me to tell anyone. So pls if you see me, dun ask becoz i
juz wanna treat it as done and gone with it even if it would be impossible.
>Another thing is i didn't go NDP(although i tried all the possible methods to get tixs, i
didnt get them in the end..boo hoo..), i went ZPOP. :)
> Happy 24th B-Day to JJ!! Although its belated, hope you be cheerful n creative always.
Dun get too stressed out by the unpleasent things around you. Please remember that no
one can replace you, becoz there is onli one of us in the world.

So saddening....
The last week was sorrowful.
First was the family of four in tampines, then the family in sydney; today in the new paper, a father and his estranged child.(havent read it but sort of scanned thru)
All the fathers in these stories are the main roles.
A father, a role model, someone the family loves, someone who loves the family, sometimes too much.
In the tampines incident, i really dun blame the father. I really dunno how to. I guess since the mother had threatened a divorce before and brought the hild away before, he would know what would be the ending of his plight. His wife would leave again, his time taking with her the two children. Maybe it's a moment of folly, a moment of impulse. For the sake of not being separated from them, from being alone, he took the wrong step. He decided to take hem all on their last trip. The wife fought back, from the scars on her neck. But the children had no choice but follow. If only he had thought for a moment what his son will do in future, how his daughter would look in a bridal gown,perhaps he would not have done what he has done. But that is human error to forget to see far.
The family in Syndey. None of them were thinking of hurting their children. When their child started seizures they acted like any normal parent. If they pend on killing them, why bother? They too are a moment of folly. I may not know how deep in trouble are they but i know they never wanted to hurt their daughters.
For a father, the proudest day of having a son would be the day he comes back from the last day of NS. The proudest day of having a daughter would be sitting there drinking the tea while the child looks up in her beautiful bridal gown. Not that she's being married off but she is going to live happily and go through everything he has. The joy, fear, excitement.

P.S JJ's album's going to be out on March 25, two days b4 his Bday. Btw, to JJ (like he will never read this site; haha but i like to write,) too much fast food like fried chicken's bad.

Okay, yesterday i met up with my first 3 mth JC frens. Kind of my fault i was tired so didn't talk much. What really curious me is why can't Jo be lisi's gan meimei? still kind of confused but since its people's reasons, i should probe but i'm dying of curiousity...haha.. dun worry my curiosity is a fade... tink i'll forget in 1 month's time. It was kind of awkward as i and lisi stay same block one floor below the other's but we never talked. Its like erm... first time we talked talk. So kind of weird. Well, hope maybe we will talk more often then form better friends ba...

Her voice serandes off the halls of the stadium. The cries and cheers, the laugh and tears of the singers, couples and fans. The echoes of encore heat up the arena. Fish's concert.

Unfortunately, i was not there. Everything above is imagined. I really wanted to go but sort of also felt weird. Majority there would have been couples but now i know i'm wrong. So next time i will be there and my blog won't end in three sentances as description. Cheers on, Fish!!

I'm real tired and wore out but yet i can't seem to sit diwn and concentrate. My work's behind time. My project still hanging. My head's empty. So saddening. Worse of all is my dad's not well. I really pray Lord please, please bless him. Let him get through this time.

Person you reading about: a girl
What she's doing: sitting down but not for long
Now feeling: Confused
Why so: Can't seem to feel that her biz law assignment has covered proper examples
Pain: Back ache and leg ache
Regret: Printed the biz law assignment already....

Wow describes everything...
Btw world I got 12.5 pts so unless i bribe the hall people which is erm.. unethical for a accountacy student, scare off freshman with ridiculous horror stories which is worse... wonder what they are thinking, depend on my fren which she herself dunno how to get a place...
Hence in conculsion, the helokitty magnets at 7-11 aren't easy to get... No wrong.. I will not be able to get a place till.. erm.. Sept? Nvm. Knew this since beginning of this sem. N worse is my pts are unearned ones means they are my liabilities... sign......