I'm a total flop. I know there's a lot of friends out there worried for me. My best friend and close buddy. My close sisters. My chums. Now, even a friend that i had not made for more than 9 months actually expressed concern. Just imagine, if you know me well, i don't become chums with others unless a long time have passed or you are the type are flexible without any false fronts. I have walked to such a point that nothing seems worth. I really must be a total flop.

Everyone's fate leads up to a different path. Now i don't blame those that commit sucide. Like a distant auntie who jumped off a HDB, she left behind a son of 13 years then. Now the boy is 18 and entering NS. Back then, i used to question why she did so. A boy in a single parent family, just entered secondary school, having to help in the family business everyday. Which mother would be so horrid? However, i changed my perspective. she could no longer bear the cancer pain and cost. She could not burden her son. Instead she sacrificed herself for him. Foolish it may be, but i believed she didn't want to go to this either. I don't blame murderers. It may not be what they want. But this path has lead them to it. Like the husband killing in the papers recently. Had not he been abused, as a human's internal pride and charvlous, he would have been retarded. Like once my lecturer said, sometimes people have a different perspective on things. They see beyond and understand further. They are determined on what they believe. Most people now don't see that. Everyone lives in a sheltered cover with high tech defence shield. Like a friend of mine said i must be crazy to cry for Light (Deathnote 2). To me, he did no wrong. He only keep to his belief, only because of desperation lead to his death. That's how people see. His death. His retribution. No one sees his strength in his belief.

Fell in love with this song last thurs during ktv. Its so nice to listen although i dunno half a word of canto. Went to find the lyrics.. okay can't say its a nice song when its supposed to be a sad balland. Hehe... contradicting. Anyway this is a short clip someone posted of their HK concert n the original singer is Lin Yi Lian.