Revamped my dream list to my dream caravan....to pack up my hopes and dreams

1) To tour the world!! New York, California, Britain, Eygpt, Dubai, Korea, Nepal... or simply malaysia off-shore islands
i luv to travel, same i luv home. just that watching tv really brings you out to the world yet in your world. But that is not gratifying enough. nothing beats hitting the rough terrain. i wanted to c MORE!!

2) Open a biz with my buddy!
this has been a combi dream of mi n my fren.... well we never got started becoz the power of two is one gatekeeper and one dreamer. but i believe it will come true, even if 30 years down the road.

3) Buy a condo for my parents to use
it started off when the idea of condomiums was out. My ma simply said" Look, this home has their own swimming pool, gym, courts, and its cheaper than bungalow." Then i decided i want to have that C in future. Well to have this C, at lest one more C is needed. That i dun have. My ma's always wanted to live in a condo. My frens now will say, dun fake lah, you live so good now. Sorry lor, to pop ya bubble, i check the retail price of my home years back. Its the same as a 5-room flat now. Tink the developer was in trouble, afterall, they closed after these row of projects.

4)To make a difference
5) To live a happpy & meaningful life
6) Help the children of the world
Simple idea. Actually i luv to do CIP, just that people around never liked to do. Only flag rising is my hated one but i keep having to do that.

7) Be able to speak freely
8) build interpersonal skills
Well, simple again. I suffer from severe stage fright. Only just not to the limit of fainting. That's why people tink its changable. Actually i believe it is but not a overnight thingy. I had been trying to change since primary school, maybe mine is permanent for life.

今天是新的开始，
是踏入大人世界的第一天，
永远不是小大人，
而现在是完全的大人，
不能撒娇，
不能再慢下来，
不能再梦想未来。
离开学校的怀抱，
踏入残酷的世界的现实，
任性的我要学长大，
不想长大的我要学现实，
逃避现实的我要学会勇气与信心，
但是时间已经不存在。

进入现代社会，
要学会如何以一个人体，
闯入生命的要求，
离开朋友的扶撑，
离开朋友的后背，
只是一个人走入下一段将来。

能不能生存是疑问，
能不能成功是怀疑，
能不能在世界走出天地是凑巧。

祝你们光亮的未来。

落地的希望。

Taken from : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
Hmm.... true for the 1st line. but i'm not a street side show.. the rest... c wat they say ba...

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Unfortunately i tink i do fit this to the T even though i havnt got into any, so i'm a commintment to stay single... frens, i am definitely willing to be a Kai Ma (Godma) to ya kids.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
this is relation to above... well... its become unknown foreverz....

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
r there too many similiar qns here? or does this simply mean the right guy is super Missing? but i really dun like to waste time on others, nor like others to waste time on me. If i bother to talk to u, seriously, ya not in my dislike list...

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
well, learning is life... ya know how impt learning is in an org. i got a couple of instruments and languages to catch up on.... as well as biz courses to choose...

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
That's y i'm in accountancy. I alwayz wanted to try auditing. well went to a terrible audit firm which TOTALLY didnot let me try.... n now firms are not accepting me becoz of the retrain factor.... guess ao-wu was rite... i shouldnt mention tat in my resume..there goes my life ambition....

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
TOTALLY true!!!!! as a leo, i'm super full of pride!!! if ya nv step out, ya nv will fall. but this is not helpful... well this solves the job hunt mystery.... Jia!! maybe ya shld really bash me up....

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
my dressing sux.... but i dun wanna act too crudely in front of others. Now, i've learnt that i'm the type that no one can rmb after years down.....so there is no purpose of concern....

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
khim said that i gave good advice that set her tinkin alternatives before. but now she no longer needs me so i dunno if i can still give good advice. Cass said my point of view is really ab-normal... supposed its my ab-normality that keeps me totally different and anti social... ( or more like unaccepted because there is no such thing as anti-social but society inability to accept an individual's behaviour... oopps, my own view again...)

Decided to try another one....
The Real You
Here is the analysis:

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Overall evaluation, try the first test, skip the next.... red is untrue, bold is true and blue is yes n no due to circumstances and orange is how would i know? conculsion? blogger needs more colour to provide this high colour usage person.....

Ryan Cabrera - True

Impressive? Hehe.... These 3 songs have been replayed like 5+ times while i'm studying....>>>>>??<<<

cried in the MRT. First time cried was 2 days after Ah Gong's death. Now because i am closer to graduation. Still no job. Know i understand the meaning on looking into the dark. Luckily it poured heavily. The heavier it rained, the higher my spirits. As the rain landed on my side, the more relieved. 原来雨是有魔力.

DId you grow up in an environment where you can fight for anything, even if it's yours? i bet not. Even if you think you are in, think again. When have you received things that you did not have to beg for or is part of conformity? Then you will not know the difference of life.

was watching the news on a 2 year old Taiwanese girl Qing qing. Though i don;t know what is the big picture or the sad story behind, it appears that her parents have decided not to revive her if she relapses. This decision will definitely face 2 sides, the suppport and against. One point is the little girl has fought so hard for her life till now, why give up only now? Another point is, she has suffered in pain till now, why let her suffer more? If you are standing in her parents' shoes, what will you choose?

Another amazing news is the Andy Lau fan, Ms Yang. I really have no comments, but the parents of fan chasers in Singapore will never complain no more ba. Knowing, supporting, being there, following, stalking, threatening, and now the newest level, emotionally disturbing. First time threatening and emotionally disturbing can be divided into 2 levels. Thankful, the China authorities have barred any more reports. Its not juz something that happened anymore but a disturbing and worrying event. Anyone reading will feel freakingly uncomfortable. Just imagine, all you are doing is your job but now you face all this? Supposed this is the price of a heavenly king.

phrase of day is back
:: Since we will not disappear any time soon, just start learning to take steps ::

oh dear~! its like less than 10 days to my first paper, my last set. Can't concentrate again. To top it off, seem to have sore throat and flu chasing after me and my head is aching. Didnt do very good on the Japanese listening test today. Oh Lord! What am I supposed to do???!!!!???

Peter Pan~ can take me to Neverland???

Terrible internet connection!! tink i'll be harassing Telecom (Singtel) again.

Juz to reply Pingz, the new victim of my new knowledge. First, Thanks for being one.

Qn1: About the Big Bang, well there's a theory that i recall was on discovery before. The particles in the universe were in constant motion and somehow formed a area of high pressure. Of course, the particles compressed and rubbed and plus the sun. Poof!. But this makes not much sense to me still.

Qn2: Our lips have a layer that realli act like an insulator. Similiarly to our skin, it protects the layers underneath and flakes when dry. (For real life example, look up Miss CSY.) However, since i don't have a medical degree, it makes no sense how we can stand hot water to our lips but will jump at hot water splashed on us. Aren't our skin thicker?

Got myself into a new fix! If i find a job now, counting on efficiency of firms, they will reply 2 wks time. But i'm having exams in 2 weeks. Then if i sent after exams, i will be out of spore in 2 wks. So am I destined to be jobless?

KL keep telling me how Carrot got in and there's no reason i cant. Appears she's taking it more serious than me. Thanks ger. I know ya thinking quite well and thanks for ya intentions. But if everything works as it is supposed, we won't worship Murphy's Law. Girl, if i can put this down, you need to too. Okay? Good luck for your drums. I will help you tink where in Spore, you can get practice in some insulated studio.

Should i pull strings? But i dun like to be somewhere because i am indebt to them. I am no way like my indirect auntie who went in DT by strings and left 1 yr later. If i really pull strings, i will most likely stay till the person who brought me in leaves.Hmm... what to do?

P.s. Hi ren! You are also a KCP? neato! This blog is more or less my dumpground. After dumping here, i feel much better. Tink most of my frens are getting used to this. Hopefully.