Went to a national day parade rehearshal, yes, rehearshal. So the goodie bag is lame, performance poor, and totally obvious disordinated. Yesh, unfortunately. Alot of foreign expats inside the parade area. Well, alot of work to be done. As least start with introducing the different segments. Its dumb to watch and don't know what is going on. All you see is kids, teens and adults running around and yet don't know what is going on. Introduce and credit is good, even better is you on both screens instead of ONE. People don't have Xray vision through the bar structures.

Even in rehearshal, get audience participation!!! Important!! Its the nation's party rehearshal, not the rundown of a tv talk show. Even at rehearshal, bring out the people's patriotic spirit. All I saw were parents trying to get their children involved than asleep, young adults remarking on ridiculous costumes, even a boy that was reading a storybook in the parade. Even at a rehearshal, be serious, man!! If you want people to see you, to say that was good, to praise the purpose of the event, put your heart into it!

btw, can provide binoculars? the stage is now harder to watch than when it was in Padang. All you see were ants and not people.

Furni stuff, totally discordinated kids during the finale, overly relaxed seniors strolling during the finale, over confident UFO handler (whose UFO ended in the sea and not in his hands), the stimulated president and minster arrivals (which they had uncles carrying signboards stating what they "are", think they had a kick of doing this sicne they even waved to the crowd as if they were the real thing).

Singaporeans, can't make it. New generation of YA, can't make it. Kids, can't make it. Can you remember the national athem? Well, even with the choir guidance, people can't sing. Kids fooling around during the pledge and athem. These are basics of a citizen. If a foreigner wants to join the community, they would learn these, yet the born-owners don't know them. Had a 4 letter-spouting guy sitting beside me, all he could do was comment 4-letters on the different performances. From army to finale, didn't stop.Even during the athem. Sux rite? Singaporeans, might as well change identity.

From today onwards, the national stadium is closed. Heard the fireworks crack the sky on the last day of its operations. Remember going there for sports day. How it was so big. how i would be sneaking around the different gates to avoid duty. Complaining how hot is was to wear full U in the hot sun. To laugh and cheer when the 3 schools counsellors challenged each other to run a round the stadium with the school flag, only to realise your school's flag is too small. How we would sneak to the milo cart to drink un-couponed milo and "treating" others to free milo. How i thought they will never remove it. Well, today its different. A part of my memory will be erase and yet i never bothered to take photos of it in its glory. Sad....
Creepy, suddenly there's more attention to the old building over its tore down date. The deaths near it. As the building fades, lives seem to be following it to the other world.

On my way home, my buddy jiaa told mi about the superband guy. Young fellow, didn't live long but furni i cant find any news about that. then i thought a story i heard long ago about the 3 men at heaven's door. Though i can't remember the final choice,( i will be grateful if someone reminded me the story), Saint Peter could only choose one to enter the gates.

What if the decision had to lie between a new-born infant, a young man of only 21 and a old grandfather. Saint Peter had to choose one to take him up to heaven and leave 2 on Earth, which one will he choose?

A new born infant who had not seen anything except his mother's womb and the light of the delivery room, have nothing to his name, had nothing to leave behind.

A young man of 21, lived a active life, believed in God, took on challenges in life and seek new ones, lived in the pampered life of his family.

A old grandfather with 5 grandkids, spends time with family, weak and sickly for years.

Who do you think He would choose?

Your choice would be who is the right age or right characteristic to take away. however i think he will take the young man. From his departure, those around will learn to treasure life. So from hearing this piece of news, we should learn to love our lives and fates more.

Was reading one of my favourite blogs... one of recipes galore~ when i clicked on one of their links

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Realised how the amount differs between the developed and developing countries? How a few bucks is their full week's worth? the type of favourite foods? The simplest things can satisfy them yet cant satisfy us. When did we lose ourselves?

Going to graduate on the 24 July but have not ordered my gown. Furni? hehe... just cant find my measurements. Haiz....Told ya i should be a guy...

Anywayz... glad to say not me or my sis is stepping on each others' toes yet. Well, not yet. My dad nearly did by asking whether she received a sms to buy bread. Somehow, i foretell 2 loaves of bread tonight. Never mind, that is their problem.

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Some people told me i think too much. She's your sister.
Well, perhaps its because you all don't know her. There's a reason why we seem like strangers. My uni frens often say that why am I and my sister like so foreign, not the other type that stick together, shop together, etc.

My sister is not like other sisters. When young, she would get all the attention by cutting into conversations, showing off her grades, asking my ma and pa for this and that. During this time, I learnt alot from my maids. That's why i'm closer to my maids than my parents. I learnt how to do housework, how to gossip, how to sing. My maids learnt what i like to eat, what i like to do, where they can find me at certain times of the day. All these which my parents do not know. They don't realise but till now, they only know my sister's and not even my brother's favs.

When i went into secondary school, I meet the best friends i ever had. From different classes, from the same class, even from different levels, i cold mix and play with them. My sister whereas is a loner was in her worse temperament then. Though i believe it was already a mental problem, my parents insist it was just stress that she throw and broke everything in the home, even the glass door. Luckily, my friends kept me sane all this time. I was in my own life and my sister in hers.

You may say that I should go help her. Well, i didn't try just once. Everytime, I had a door in my face or some stuff thrown at me. She became more and more like a ticking time bomb as my brother grew up and stopped purposely ignoring her. Its like even the 16yr old learnt how to control his temper. Last time she used my brother as a reason for her daily temper tantrums. She would keep saying how close me and my bro were, hinting that we keep leaving her out cold to my parents. Fortunately, my brother has matured so much, thanks to his friends too. I felt like crying when i heard the first conversation he had with my sister since 5 years ago (Even if it was a question about how to use her handphone and a reply to use the internet). Now, she appears lost and flares up at the simple stuff like just asking her if everyone has eaten. You may say she's in a bad mood, well no too. Before that, she could be the one asking you if you were washing the dishes.

Its like unless I master the art of zen, I wil not be able to live with her. And the near iron throw qas the last straw. To me, it was proof that she was only at the thin line of amok and sanity. Her expression then was logic-less, plain mad. The neighbours were talking about the ex-Singapore singer that landed in IMH. So what's your judgment on it?

I made it through. But don't think it's going to end simply. Won't be putting my guard down. There's still a possibility. Afterall, she was scolded by my mum which the next morning specially set aside a nonya zhang for her. Hmm... conflicting? or overloving? And she was crying the next morning till my parents went to work. Queer? She screamed and shoputed after she stepping out of my home, attracting alot fo the neighbours' attention. Well, let's say now the neighbours run faster than normally when anyone of my family appears.

Maybe it's natural for a Leo to attract attention but in her way? She even calls home to tell us simple stuff like there's a quene somewhere when none of us are interested. All these don't add up to normal behaviour but more of obession. And it appears that me and my brother are her barriers to attention. Erm lor. My parents hardly know or care where i go. Only on the day before i went Taiwan then they knew which day. All they care are my accounts and whether i will ask them for money.

I still believe she may kill one day honestly. All factors point to possible abuse. However, my parents are worried about records and face so they are against seeking medical attention. Perhaps, like many incidents, it takes a disaster to realise the measure of danger.

I can't live here no more. It takes more than 190,000 to get a 3 room HDB flat and I am no way near the midpoint. But I need to get out. My sister nearly threw a iron into my face just now. I feel that my life is really starting to be at risk. Not only mine, my brother's too.

Today, I waited for her to bathe first as usual. It's a unspoken rule that if i haven't bathe by 730pm, I must let her bathe first, even if she bathes at 10pm. Or she will make a rackus in the living room. I have always given way to her since young. Things she wants, food she wants. Today she falls asleep without considering that I haven't bathed and was happily telling me that she fell asleep and how tired she didn't expect herself to be. Oh please, an hour ago she was watching her animae which she forces everyone else to watch with her.

I could not keep my top. I blew up at her after spending a tiring day preparing for the Dumpling Festival. As norm, she went out of the house and shouted and screamed as if it was my fault. I really could not stand it and shouted back outside. How can she not know that i haven't bathe when she took my undergarment basin downstairs to hold her dirty clothes? What kind of lie is that I didn't tell her so she didn't know? Like my daily habit of using the same basin is not distinctive enough. She threw the clean laundry all over the floor so i pushed her wet laundry on the floor as well. Then she went mad and picked up the iron to throw. In fact, she pushed away the nearby wire, ignored the empty boxes and aimed the iron. This clearly indicates proper thinking then and not random amok behaviour. After looking at her expression then, I know i'm in trouble. She's going to get her revenge. Maybe i'll be killed in my sleep. Her face had no expression of just anger but revenge. Revenge on her younger sister. Please Lord, which sister would want to harm her sliblings with such blind fury? I had been the sufferer for years with my parents taking her side on everything. Even now, they are with her while I'm all alone.

It's driving me MAD!!!

My fren's bf is too much!! and she's still giving in to him!!! Starting to decide between confronting the guy and giving him a big kick (not on his butt) or giving my fren a tight slap to wake her up...

Its so ERRRR!!! Maddening!!! Guys in the world! Give you all a chance to support your stand. What kind of situation would you ask (or more or less demand) your gf to stay with you so as to "maintain" the relationship? If you are supportive of living together, are you clearly not thinking of any sexual desires? Another thing, if your gf doesn't live with you, does it give you the right to say she does not give enough into a relationship and you can go flirt with others? Is this even sufficient as a breakup reason?

How am I going to get her to leave a big jerk cum pile of shit!! so maddening!!! If she continues on and ignores our group's advice, I will definitely break contact with her. Women! Why should we be so vulnerable and controled by men? Why won't they stop thinking dirty and think more for us? And most importantly, when will they take proper responsibility, speak out their actual thinking instead of giving elaborate excuses and stories???

worse is the 3rd party. A true blue SLUT. Flirting around with a younger guy when you are getting married. Your husband-to-be is really pitiful.

Starting to suspect my grandpa is right.

He said God made a mix-up. I should have been a son instead.

Why you ask?

I was a full tomboy when young. I climb trees, scabbed knees and played with a giant spider. Very different from my sister and every other little girl living down the lane.

As for now, I am not a manicure person, a comestic worshipper, a make-up freak. In fact, I don't understand all this stuff. Although I have them on my table, but I don't use them unless there is a dinner or something. If your guess is correct, I have alot of expired products that i am still using since there is so much left. Never understand those conversations too. This and that. Oh that is good. At the end of the day, Isn't everyone's condition different?

Worse, I totally don't get why girls will throw themselves like slaves to guys during relationships? Needless to say, my friend's problem again. She gave in to her bf's nonsensical demand. Haiz....

I'm sure everyone has heard of the cupid. But have you heard of the black cupid?

Like a theory off the scientists unprovable bench is the idea of the opposite dimension. Similiarly, why won't the cupid have an opposite side? Just like the drama Mediacorp did once with the cupid and her nemisis, the one that separates couples.

Why am I crapping all these? Because i don't know whether to be the black cupid this time. I've to couple people by giving them excessive personal space which amazing works. This time, should I advise my friend to leave her bf? They've been together for a yr. But he's like a ticking jealousy bomb with overdemanding requests and little gentleman actions. They click because the jokes and humour they have, but is that really able to sustain their relationship?

I've never been in love so i don't know how it feels exactly. ALso, I never asked her whether she really feel he's worth it. But i really feel that in this one yr, the stress my friend's under is really not worth of this felon.

So should i be the black cupid?

s.h.e 飞轮海-谢谢你的温柔

Thank you to those around me. Was watching SHE's new MV when i saw the link to this song. Real nice reflection of me.

Also, I was wanted to tell someone i knew since Sec2. If i mention the name, my sisters will start again so i won't. Ya juz gotta know who you are, okay? Thank you for being so good to me in the past. I wish you find your Ms Right real soon....

Now back again.... exhausted but MORE broke..

learn some new stuff from these 2 trips

1. some people really injure easily...
2. 2 people have too many nicks
3. mushrooms, wasabi, soup, mosquitoes, blah blah... are on people's hate list
4. skin under the feet become hard if you wak too much
5. insects are dangerous
6. maps are important, direction sense and map reading sense is more important
7. self control is neccessary in Taiwan and HongKong
8. luggage is very easily spoiled
9. hostels are not comfortable
10. why am I more tired from the hostel than the walking?
11. coordination, tolerance, patience, understanding, stepping back, remebering to think of others, consideration of time... skills of vacation..