Just serve my school's website. They finished uploading the farewell fassembly photos. I saw quite a few people i know there... my classmates teachers friends sy including my friend's ex secretly in love target KID. Haha really funny to see this photos. It gives a feeling that my you have never left the school. I remember the first day i went in, my first thoughts were " Oh God waht the hell have i got into?" The school very rugged inside. But now i can understand a school is not only its enviroment, but its people. I made quite a few friends there from CCA, class, friend's class and pe. A bit messy because we're not close but its like we are in trouble or in difficulty, just seeing them provides a comfort. No wonder everyone is smiling in the photos. Everyone may have the school but the friendship follows them. Maybe we won't meet again for forty years after the A's but we will forever remember the times we had in school like scaring someone in the toliet. Hahahaha The final obstacle is coming up now. Wish everyone all the best...
Honestly i have solved a problem with communciation still. Never seemed to like phones or siutting down to chat. Hmm... seems quite weird counting that its practically common knowledge that girls can spent 3 quarters of a day on the phone. I still rather go out and walk till my legs wanna drop off.

Just downloaded a couple of songs... the weather looks like its going to rain. Some people hate the rain some love the rain. Ther's a hongkong singer who love the rain enough to call herself rain. Just imagine the people shouting at her fan club... It'll be like a couple of bushmen yelling for rain. If God answers their yells, it'll always rain at her autograph sessions haha. For me it depends. I always hear how the rainy upsets people's moods but for me a little drizzle or downpour can be very cheery. However if its very heavy till my umbrella turns inside out, now that's terrible... Pehaps everything in based on opinon. Everything can be looked at two different views optimism or pessimism. However pessmism seemed more vivid in present day. So my advice for the day is to keep your chin up and take a light look on life. It maybe hard but just not expecting too much from life is enough recover from disappointments faster...

It's amazing that the world is so unfair since the writing of the bible. This few days I have been reading up a bible storybook I found at home. Presently i'm at the story of Moses. It's weird since it seems that Aaron seems to the person carrying out actions while Moses handles the negotiations, only till they reach the red sea then Moses does the parting of the sea. However when we watch television or listen to others about this story, Moses is the main character and Aaron his brother is forgotten behind the scenes. Kind of unfair.
Some people are born with talent wealth and luck. Nothing seems to get in their way of life. But there are also people who live in poverty and spent their childhood begging along the streets. It sounds a little communist ideology but communism does not work . It is proven by history that it is faulty.
I would like to turn back the clock and learn piano and taekwando. No not because Lin junjie can do it but it has been my dream to able to play the piano and take up taekwando lessons since primary school. However my family was never well to do so they could not afford the lessons. We won't wealthy at all. Although it seems i'm richer than my friends, but actually i maybe even poorer than them. That is why i do not like to hear my friends say whoa you're so rich can live there after i tell them i stay in private housing. Although i have stayed here for more than ten years, nothing much has changed. However sometimes when i go to my friends house their things seem to change very fortnight. Sign so i lost the chance to take these up when young but i'm determined to try now after my A'levels. And my role model will have to be successful too.... haha no points for guessing who...ya junjie. After seeing his flying kick on the show, i got so inspired to try taekwando but i'm still worried my physical abilities aren't enough. Then, i'm still going to try, but first see if got age group class. Now listening to Air Supply " All Out of Love" and signing off.....

I forgot to add. Today I saw the preview for next week of big brother's return on scv. of course the guest is .............LIN JUNJIE. And the worse part is he's too talented!!!!! He going to perform takekwando and that particular day i'm not home in time to watch it.... No fate a...Never guess he knew taekwando too. Just watched him on shao nian te gong dui on scv ( not on purpose just filpped channels and ta da he's on screen) Although he was not in any stunts when i turn over, but can see a little bit that they do not give him much attention.Even when 5566 wang ren fu was upset over losing he tried to comfort him but was meet with some kind of uh?? type of expression. Aiyo... jj must be that kind that do not watch variety shows often... The host always look sad when they lose but need no comforting. It is a consequence of losing almost biweekly. Then they did not show the part where they carried out the punishment by eating bugs. Only could see jj holding a pair of chopsticks but they only featured the wang renfu, taiwanese actress xian mei and the shining girls( honestly i never heard the shining girls songs but i know that they seriously have a shortage of cloth in all costumes) This type of games have high risk of overexposure but these three seemed unaffected and determined tio wear their costumes there. Sezz.... the decency of the media is definitely downgrading....

Its been a week since I written anything. Hmm... Actually the duck says my last entry is too despondent. So I do exaggerate but the main idea of what's happen is still there. My blogs are most probably going to be kind depressing so duck honestly you better stop reading it too often or else you be very despondent too.
Last night, I had a terrible dream. I'm writing it down so I would not dream of it again. In my dream, I was in some kind of company camp or other where everyone seemed to working on a big project to get a large amount of inheritance ( I think from the deceased boss or director). The place had a creepy olden Japanese home feeling. The table and doors were those found in traditional homes. At first, everyone's playing games and drinking. Then I felt tired and went bed first. Later I woke up to a startle. Everyone was at the door and looking at the other direction of room( oh yah everyone's sleeps in the same room) I looked over and there lay female body dressed in a purple dress. Her eyes were open and tongue out. After that I was kind in shocked but someone told me there were animal noises before they came in. Somehow everyone recovered fast. Next thing I realized, everyone was sleeping. I shared the mat with a guy on the right and another girl on the left. Both were sound asleep. I looked slightly over her head and saw the mat was packed with the rest so I thought it was my imagination. Then I sort of went back to sleep. The next day everyone is working on the project again. Later we took a nap at the discussion room. Suddenly, I saw my friend there in my dream and she was mewing like a cat. I was so scared that I kept shaking her till she woke. She had no recollection of what happened. Soon we're asleeped again. I woke up this time because the guy was making a racket waking another person. I sat up just in time to see he had woken the other fellow. He turned and told me some kind of curse is coming and one of us is going to die after we started making animal noises ( seems senseless but so some reason I felt very scared by then) He looked behind me and ask if my friend had made sounds. At that point I got too frightened. I stared at him but my eyes seemed cloudy. I kept begging in my heart " I want to get out of this".Luckily I woke up. I concluded it's due to my sis telling me a murder detective story just sleeping. However it's still scary especially at the point the guy was sort of hinting something had happen to my friend. Hopefully I will not dream of it again. Everytime I have a bad dream, writing it down seems to be the only way to break from it. Hopefully this time it works again.

Yesterday i went to Kbox with my friends. After singing for five hours, i think i've lost 50 percent of my voice but the sad part is the sangs didn't have Lin Junjie's MV in Ktv mode, only for listening but never mind still sang along... When " Dong Jie" was on, my friend said something that never occured to me... won't his girlfriend be jealous.... hmmm... i just realized maybe i'm not a fully crazy for jj.. hee hee... seems like only look towards him as a big brother i never had or an ideal that can't be reach... just like how i look at stefanie sun... this local sister with a talent impossible to me which unfounately is practically tone deaf. I can't differentiate the different keys on a piano... Of course the duck keeps hoping jj would be her neighbour than KH. Like that maybe i'll go to her home more often??? Dont know but i think even KH is her neighbour, nothing much will happen but don't why she so ji dong. Isn't as though he's some kind of peeking tom or what...
Another thing is THere's No YU JIAN from the movie.. sign.. was really hoping to find the song. Maybe too new so not ready...because of tis karaoke session, i almost got into trouble. i forgot that i told my grandma that i'll be at her house by 3 but in the end i only reach at 730... *hee hee so i left a bunch of blur people at the mall when i ran to catch the bus.... kind of sorry to both sides. But what's done is done lah. At least i played enough, now must force myself to study... of course with occasional break on the com.
To all students suffering along with me, JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!!

I realized I did really intro myself much so here it goes...
My name's Daphne and presently 18.... Why I'm in this blog writing was because I got a lot of things that I don't think will make sense o my family and oh ya must give credit to the duck .I'm in JC2 presently and welcome comments but no virus please to my e-mail reachinout4dreams@hotmail.com..
Talk about generation gap... haha but honestly i'm only 4 years younger and 6 years older. I'm fine with my brother since he does listen to me often and finds time to irritate me...ok that is not a good point but better than no communication at all. My sister however does seem to be from this earth at times. She's most of the time like a village girl in the bustling city. She does not any media artistes local or international... but maybe because I notice this things more. She complains about computers and modern pop. Whenever she listens to music, it's always the oldies... okay the oldies aren't that bad but aren't the best way to relax while studying. I always fall asleep in less than 10 min of the cd playing and can't study finished..
Hmm... maybe things would have been different if i had an older brother at least there's someone to take advantage off paying stuff, blackmail when he has a girlfriend secertly, use as a sheild when someone bullies me....but then if i really had one, i don't think i'll do these things.. i most probably treat him as a friend, a very close friend... so actually i hoped to find a guy friend that be like a brother to me .... no need anything more...
after seeing some of my friends failed relatonships... not yours a duck.. but other friends.... i've known them since secondary, seen them walk into love and getting ditched in the end all because the guy aren't dedicated to one or just don't give enough attention... so ya my friends are very demanding for attention but i feel that most of this guys would have felt it in less than 5 dates.. you see my friends tend to behave normal after the first date... but they drag on till the feeling runs too deep for the girls and tears them apart when they separate. So maybe it's unfair to view it from one perspection...And maybe it's because i can't stand how they practically waste time by thinking of guys almost everyday...( in a way it's tormenting for bystanders like me to listen to their comments). It's like relationships drive people desperate. ( don't worry duck you not that bad) Sign... +_+ now listening to TENSION < Gotta Be Your Men> and signing off...

So i promised someone that i'll talk about someone else besides JJ...but i have got any ideas....so i'll just continue....heehee
In JJ album, there is this song in track 11 called " there will be this day" ( direct translation) about a old couple's love. I really find the song super touching.... even before i heard that the song is from a true story. I guessed almost everybody whose his fan has heard about the song written along the story of his grandparents. However that's not the part that touches me most is the part he sings of the grandma lying on the hospital bed dying. Everytime i hear this part when i'm alone, i start crying. I'm not nuts yet, but that part makes me recall my grandpa's death a year ago only a few hours from the break of a new year. I remember he called me to his bed and held my hand, something he stopped doing since i reached 15. His hands were so rough with age and tired as though he had done some heavy work. He said faintly, so different from his loud, strong voice, " Daphne, i know there won't be many people at my funeral..." I could not bear hearing anymore then, tears were already buliding in my eyes, and just kept saying no, there will be alot of people. I really could not believe the grandpa i know who greeted everyone he met in the market, banks,hawker centre had no friends, but at the funeral hardly any of his friends came.( so much for concern). I often joked with him at the bedside that he can't die yet, and if he must, he'll have to wait for grandma or else. So now when the song reaches the part the grandma says that there will be a day they will be , walking in the fields together, i'll start crying even more.
Maybe it's a bit weird to others that even till now i'm still crying at times. My grandparents were the ones who took care of me in my childhood years till my parents could afford a maid. I'm the only kid in the whole family who practically gets what i want.... maybe you can consider i super spolit by them....I learn that grandparents can't be taken for granted. They do love their grandchildren and willingly to take care of them even if it tires themselves, they will put heart and soul in caring for us.

First time trying this out.. a bit nervous but just had the urge to speak out some crap...
i went to the taka concert last friday. Really happy because i saw lin junjie and fish leong. Wow they were really great looking in person. i was so speechless.. a bit dumb because i just stare and stare at them. When they waved at my direction, i could not even wave back.. heehee lucky all those people around me waved. I went to the back of the stage at the end, actually just to find a way to get a drink but what would you know that time jj left the arena, followed by fish. Whoa i was so delighted although i was blocked in the end. But it's just the joy of knowing someone you considered as a great idol being less than a metre away...

I really admire jj. In singapore, it's like so hard to chase what path you want without someone's disapproval....But then junjie made it. He managed to convinced his family to accept the path he's taken. He's chasing his dream. It's like so amazing....like Stefanie Sun Tanya Kit A-Du he's breaking into the music field...Not only can he composed music and dance, he's willing to take up other instruments like the metal bar gig the did for happy sunday, the drum that looks like a pot for Big Brother's Return. All these need a lot of practice. ( okay and not denying the fact he's so cute and gentlemanly)

Really hope his next album will be a bigger success and the fan base willl extend more to Spore.(secertly hoping maybe he read this but very clear that's its impossible) And Jia You to not only him as well as the talented lyricist Zhang Si Er..