I feel like runnng away to a distant island where there is no one else(but that will be lonely). Or grow wings on my back like an angel and fly up into the clouds where i can watch the earth move from my haven. I wish i would stop aging so less problems will come along. But all these are impossible. Everyday we grow one day older. Everyday we will face problems, new or old. Everyday we need to face people, no matter we love or hate. I admire artistes like SHE since they can act immature and still be accepted by people. Why? People all want to have ability to behave immature not when they are with their lovers but when they want to. Even though they act immature, they are still maturing in a way but the way allows them to error and stick out their tongue in the end. That is the wonder of the world. What is expected is never what we want. I wish i could learn to grow without growing, learn without stress, and the most enjoy my youth as much as possible(although most of the world no longer do)

University life ain't easy man. Since i'm in accountacy, i got tons of projects and presentations to do. Really feel i'm in the wrong course at times. But my family culture is when you have taken the first step, you can't look back no more. So i got to pull up my gut and walk on.

Today's my dad's 52 birthday. I didn't buy anything because i don't know wat to buy. My dad is always quiet about wat he wants while we kids are also wanting this and wanting that. My dad at times is like a backview to me. He is tired but pushing on, worn out but going strong, peaceful yet turbluent. No matter how much he tries, there is this barrier between him and the rest of the family. I think that is because in the past for the family, he worked a 7 day 18 hour weeks. Now he is 52, waiting to retire his tired self. Sometimes he is the clown, always talking nonsense. I still remember his theory on how people go to the toilet on the plane and why my mummy never goes anywhere without an umbrella. He actually fooled me for 4 years till i firs took a plane ride. My mum told me to go to the loo but i refused. That is when she chided my dad for lying. Now my dad is still talking rubbish and trying to convince us. We are able to see through his lies(luckily) and catch his flaw. He will always show his grin with an opening at the side of his mouth. That's my dad lor. My frens either say he looks like a grandpa or he is very cute in humour way. To me, he is like jar of marbles. Sometimes he acts as if he lost his marbles(when he talks nonsense). Sometimes he is just stable there , sitting firmly on his throne. ( Always for advice and firm on his principles). Most of the time he is just there to play along with me. I suppose no one treats their dad the way i do. People often ask him why he allows me to bully him. He just smiles and say no choice. No matter what i know he will love us children and no matter what he does, he will put us in 1st place. That's MY DAD!

So sad... i can't go to JJ only autograph session in singapore because of school project meeting. Think this year ny fate with him is super duper low. So please don't remind me about sun and 2 pm k. Or else i will be sad again.Maybe next year it will be gone.Then i will find another idol. hahah. Of course hopefully local. But i won deny that i'm craze about fish leong. Her vocals are no. 1. There is like no one else in the singing arena that can beat her. Fish leong rulz! I went to her yan wei die autograph session. Wa her vocals are damn powerful. No matter if it's a sad song or a rock song her vocals can carry the effect out. But i think if she dances hip hop, i will collapse in laughter because it is so not her type of singer. She is a shi li pai and not a wu dao pai like elva.

I just downloaded a dancing scooby and i can't stop laughing now. It's so funny. Think of it break dancing to JJ version of home. Now it's doing a micheal jackson imitation. Hahahah...

Today's the first time i spend a classless wed in hostel. Man is it bored. My new roomie is a yr 4 MPE student. She is out from morning and back after i sleep.