Sign.... Feels like i've aged acrss the week..worse i think i becoming a little hua chi... Oh dear...Juz started psychoing myself i'm not. Hopefully it works. I scanned the net just now. Wow. There's like 200 plus blog sites with JJ name inside and 50 plus saying they saw him in the streets of Singapore. Okay, i didn't check one by one but a rough amount would be there. That's what fame is i supposed. When you enter your own name in the search engine, you will get a few hundred positive results. I once asked myself, Is this what i would want if i was famous? Of course there's no answer. I'm already grateful if my groupmate can remember my name. Kind of sad. But there's something weighing on me for one and a half semester. My first roommate in NTU was not totally true, as in true in character. After alot of observations, i realised she was true only to her secondary school friends. Kind of sickening. It's like you know her for 2 years to realise she maybe lying to you about alot of things and complaining about you behind your back. (Okay i do that sometimes but i also tell the people i talk about how much i get mad at them at times. My friends too say sometimes i'm so straightforward that they can't stand me) Anyway, i heard from someone else she was actually planning to bunk up with her sec school friend. She was not willing to share the room with me. But then i had asked and she had to continue her act from JC. I know it's like a rumour but i really can see too many concidences. And now she won't speak to me nor sms me like last time as though i was the reason for her moving out. She's so plastic. If next year she stays hostel, that will be so hypocritical since her reason was that she couldn't adapt. Tommorrow my friend wants me to go out with them which includes my ex-roommate. I can't seem to control my emotions yet, feel so much hate for her i'm so tired but the minute i hear her name all this hate comes back. Think it will take maybe to the day i graduate to forget about it. I know this actions i take will only make everyone misunderstand me further but no matter what I say, they believe in her more. So much for JC lec mates.

Everything is happening so fast. Chinese new year's gone, v day is almost over. Soon it will be my presentation cum 2 tests day... thursday!
Hmm... everywhere are couples today. Young old same gender ( come on no discrimination but i havn't seen any yet) But what about those still drinking with 1 straw in 1 cup? What about the swinging singles? Often we ask what is love? How will we know when it's arrived? When will we know we lost the chance to embrace it?

If you watch shows often, they always say," when you see the spark in their eyes, when you just wanna see them again and again, when you just wanna call them up in the dead of the night, that's when you have found your lover."

Of course, whoever can make me wake up to listen to the phone in the dead of the night must be very impressive, because i won't wake up unless it's very special. Today afternoon my friend was keying her ideal requirements of a dream guy on her blog.( the amazing likeness of Jay decribes what she wrote, afteral she loves jay like i would like mine to have a cute face, small eyes, amazing voice and delightful smile.No prizes for those who guess what i'm talking about) Actually why do we set these requirements? Are we to know what we want is want we get? All of us know life dun work that way. We can't control whether tomorrow will rain or the birds will fly to your window. We can only control our choices. If love is a choice, have we missed out on dozens of chances? I think that maybe the day we stand alone on the hill at a certain age, we will turn around and accept those that we oushed out of the door. Will that be desperate act? I doubt so. Only those persist with you to the end are the unique ones but there's almost none now. No one waits for another, even i am not sure i would.

Cherish the day cherish your life cherish evey chance to love that the Lord gives, no matter to your slibing, parents, friends or life partner. Happy V- day!

I suppse I need to take back my last blog. Still can't figure out how Meijun got to find my blog... Did I leave any clues? Hmm... but there's a dozen 1985 daphnes around. Oh ya a pre-Happy Chinese New Year in case i forget. Actually felt better after complaining on the blog. Kind of a vent frustration area. Oh another thing. When am I suppose to dine with my dear 2 TPJC friends? Heehee.. we always say never do. Bad habit leh and I haven't seen someone's self portrait nor eat at her canteen there. Anyway the girl in my last blog hand in her withdrawal form yesterday. I think her roommate is trying her best to take it easy. It was rather a big shock. It's like i say i thinking of moving out then 3 days later i ask you to help me hand in the withdrawal form. If it's me, i don't think i can take the impact. But i think my friend is shuang kuai in deciding. Maybe i should learn that quality from her.